Went out with Jedi today. Told him everything thta happened for the last few days. I cant bare to see his sad face. Even though he might didn't show it clearly, but I can see that he's pretty shaken. I can understand why ...

He listened to my stories, he held me in his arms. He kissed my forehead, my eyes, and cheeks. He hugged me so tight. I can understand why ...

His wounded heart, his dreams and hopes. His sad inner being, and I can understand why.

He broke his fast, he kissed me. But his sadness and broken hearted still vibrates thru his kisses. And I can understand why ...

Time went by, he's still there. With me. His hug were almost like one of those last hugs to give. And I can understand why ...

This is too much to bare and think about. He drove me home, still with a sad look. Plus mine too!! I dont know how to act, what to say. Shut the door of my room, turn on the comp, listen to Third Day, Mary Mary and Nicole. Then my tears started to rundown my cheeks. I just cant comprehend my own feelings. I've known him too long to let him go or walking out of my life. It's true ... he's a part of me automatically.

Then he called from his house...
And the time stood still ...
I can understand why ...